Sunday, March 26, 2006
2day i wasted my life. wait, that sounds like everyday.
hmm niwaes lets see.
morning went madrasah.
came back playd guitar.
or tried playing.
hmm i think im tired of guitar.
but i find my old guitars very inspirational.
as in when i try like randomly making my own riff/rythm/wdvr u call it.
especially the Academy "Les Paul".
and my yamaha c360.
haha but sumhow i cant seem 2 get away from metal
usually metallica
but sumtimes the rythm i make it abit king diamond-ish
off-beat, syncopated. wdvr.
hmm niwaes while i was wasting my life just now my bro msgd me.
at abt 6pm ++.
here's his msg:
'Bro, bapak masuk hospital since ystd.sori tak bilang sian2. very bz n tired. he's at ttsh...'
i dun giv a shit abt my father. honestly. i mean he din give a fuck abt me 4 d past 16 yrs, y wud i care abt him? but sumhow im damn pissed coz my bro din inform me abt my dad being hospitalised. twice leadi. dat time when my dad got stroke n got hospitalised, i was the last person to know ah. n dat was like bcoz i happend 2 sms my bro wishing him happy bdae. abt 10 pm. i dunno y d hell did i fcking bother to like rush 2 hospital seh dat nite when i found out my dad got hospitalised. fcking wasted a gd nite slip.
i cant wait till my mum gets hospitalised.
strummed the guitar at 3/26/2006 10:05:00 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
ouch. sorry ros. won't happen again.
ari if u dun change ur blogskin.....
ok damn a moment ago i had a lot of ideas on what to blog abt for today, but kind of forgotten half of them. nevermind i shall jot them down as they return to my memory in bits and pieces.. whee!
ok b div hockey finals match ydae. crescent vs st nics(nicks? my spelling sux big time). st n.. won during penalty round. managed 2 catch 2nd half of d 2nd half of d match onwards.. coz i had 2 go guitar.. bleargh. din do anything during guitar practice ah, wdh. ok anyways while dat match was going on i sat wif d big bunch of ri guys la. n they were next to d st nic supporters d area there.. so naturally dey supported st nic, xcept 4 me.. so like each time dey cheered i was like aww man, n each time dey awwww i was like yay! hmm niwaes it was a damn tight match. congrats 2 both team.
den comes d boys. raffles institution vs northland secondary. lost 1-0. jeremy was like damn sad. wait evrione was lah. i mean its natural that u feel at least a bit sad when u lose a match. especially if it was a damnnn tight one. hmm but dey put up a damn gd fight of coz. three cheers for jeremy siang huat aaron petty(did i spell his name right?) chun mun(did i get diz one right too?) faris hijazi n all d hockey players man! three cheers!
hmm d match reminded me of my syf. last year. call me sentimental or wdvr u like la. but i seriously felt like crying after our performance, bcoz i knew i din do my best. i was not even close to my best. i let everyone down. n like i was damn scared b4 d results came out, bcoz i know dat we wun get gold with honours. n i thought we cudn evn get bronze. coz my playing was atrocious. d standard i playd was like a few months before syf liddat. but in d end we managed to clinch a gold medal, along wif 4 other schools. n it was the highest medal awarded. n the thing is, when the results was announced, almost every school cheered. d bronze winners, the silver winners, everyone. xcept 4 ri and acs(i). i think i juz figured it out. why we din cheer i mean. it doesnt matter if you won or lost. no matter how good an impression you make on the judges, you wont be able to celebrate if you know u did not do your best.
ok enuf abt that.
sajak. was supposed to have sajak today. ydae nabil told me that he cudn make it, so he put me in charge. wait no wrong. nabil didn tell me, i had to ask him. and thats like bcoz it so happend that i met him on d way 2 sembahyang jumaat, and i happend to remember abt d competition that is like in 7 dayz time. ok so niwaes cut to the chase. sadikin said cikgu booked LT1 from 8 am, so we shud start at 8. so i told evrione start at 8. xcept 4 haris, coz i din hav his number. bla bla bla. 2++am syafiq msgd me. told me 2 start at 9. i read his msg when i woke up, which was at 8. so one side of me was like 'dood the competition is in 7 dayz.. we hav a lot to do!'.. but another side was like 'hmm ok la nvm 8 oso too early lah.. so ok la 9 la 9 la'.. so yea i told him to tell EVERYONE.. k dat was settled. after that i sembahyang den wanted to sleep back, but i was scared i wud b late 4 sajak, so i got up again shower slowly... n sumhow 4 sum unknown reason i was rushing!! k anyways i din hav time to breakfast la... coz unlike some ppl i had actual stuff to do after sajak, n like i actually hav 2 prepare 4 deez kinda stuff.. ok niwaes rush rush rush.. reachd bshan abt 855.. so rushd 2 skool.. d usual gate closed.. walkd one big round 2 rj gate.. k bla bla bla reach LT oni bagus n sadikin n bagus was there..
wait wait wait.. o yea adly arrived at like 8, so he left 2 wat at macs, den came back at like 940 but still no one there.. sadikin had 2 leave at 930 coz got sum valid reason.. not like tak bole bangon sebab smalam nengok apm like sum ppl.. k k nvm.. anwaar n syafiq came in at 1010.. den sat down bebual bebual mcm tak buat ape2.. adly was like dammnn pissed lah.. taufiq azim lagi maseh kat ruma ke ape.. arif tak datang.. wdh.. so adly packd his bag n jalan.. im amazed dat he din slam d door.. o wait d lt door got dat thingey at d top of it dat like slows down door movement? o yes.. so he cudn slam.. hmm niwaes we bebual bebual bebual.. n nuthing much la..
bla bla bullshit bullshit den i rushd to suntec city.. n like on the way there i was like wdfwdfwdfwdfwdfwdfwdfwdfwdfwdfwdf bitch!!!! at randomness coz i was like sumhow worried/pissed abt sajak.. hmm d funi thing is, i neva signd up 4 sajak initially. n like d ones who enthusiastically sign up r d one who duzn care abt d competition. i think thats my problem. i care too much abt stuff dat i shudn care abt. i shudn care abt pbm, coz got d exclusively hand-picked exco who is capable of commiting to all the activities. yea man. commiting. not coming for practice. coming late 4 practice. skrewing around during dk practice. yea man, true commitment! woohooo d pbm is going in d right direction.
i find it stupid dat we hold peraduan dialog 4 secondary schools when we ourselves tak masok bahas.
mite as well do sumting like 'Juara Dikir'.
ok im so not in d mood 2 blog now.
ah k nvm 4 d sake of blogism...
my pinkie!! nid 2 work out! go pinkie go. ok from diz point on im typing wif my pinky only. wheee! to shred on d guitar u nid a super powered pinkie! go pinkie go!!
k i givup.
ah lack of preseverence, anoda problem.
k i cant feel my pinkie! ahh!
.associated?
randomness.
strummed the guitar at 3/25/2006 09:07:00 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
ok i shud b doing physics n math instead of blogging n msning n browsing blogs n looking at photos. seriously fendy, a rock star wannabe shudn procastinate :P
hmm but if i dun procrastinate now dat means im procrastinating procrastination, which izn much better den procrastinating anth else rite?
k gtg. k haz kite da update. yay! :P
all hail rosari! >.<
strummed the guitar at 3/21/2006 06:00:00 PM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
AM NOT OBSESSED!!
wads wif u n obsessions niwaes, mawar? hahaha mawar. damn koolio. c i damn nice leh come up wif coolio names 4 u.. <-- refering 2 farina. bleargh.
k stupid arif. saved dat pic under my name. haha arif fell 4 'chipmunk'. haha k i damn bad seh. k la 'chipmunk' is diz gurl in my kiq grp juz now. sec 1 or 2 i think. dunno y he called her chipmunk. haha but i totally luv her specs.. but i luv mine more.. black, red, plastic n cheap! yet long lasting(i hope :P)!
k i think im turning into a veri bad person. veri insensitive n stupid n big mouthd. serious ar. 2dae oni i juz like maen shoot sembarangan twice.. or trice.. freek man. shut up taufiq shut up taufiq shut up taufiq. think BEFORE you speak. seriously. k im in like that 'i wanna go back in time' mood..
speaking of wich. there r like many hundreds stuff dat i wish i didn do/say.. n sum stuff dat i wishd i did do/say..
if i can travel back in time i wanna go back 2 primary one.. wait no.. primary two..
i wish i listend to my tuition's teacher advice :P..
i wish i appreciated my childhood..
i wish i met this person earlier..
i wish me n that person din hav to go our seperate ways..
i wish i pickd up guitar much earlier, b4 my cuzzins retired frm d jamming world..
i wish i paid attention in math class..
wait no cancel dat last wish coz if i did pay attention den i wudn hav faild math n i wudn get 2 go 2 bmc tuition n met a wonderful person there..
hmm i wishd i din write sum stuff on my blog n like expect noone 2 read it n den cancel it n replaced it wif *text deleted*..
i wish jeremy/noel etc stop calling me playboy! im freeking not ok....
i wish i was dead.
k wait relax ppl im juz having my normal(normal???) regular(regular????) mood swings.. wun commit suicide, promise. hmm rite now i wish i can talk 2 my old fren. juz 4 like 5 mins. pls God. i promise i try my best not 2 b naughty.
.moodswing
strummed the guitar at 3/18/2006 09:13:00 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
ok haven post 4 a long time. juz in case i hav 2 go off later halfway, lemme put down briefly wad i wan 2 talk abt.
sajak.
fareenah said its my fault that her day was skrewd up 2dae, or ydae, or sumtin liddat. k wait dats all i hav 2 say abt dat topic. >.<
sumbody askd me 2 b lead guitar, but 4 fort minor songs.
erm my shits 4 d past few days.
n hazwani's back! yay!
haha ok sajak. hmm im damn worried. but nabil's more worried. coz he's d director. o wellz. at least he duzn hav 2 run around d stage at level 10. but he has 2 worry abt a lot of other stuff la. pity dat little kiddo. haha. all d best fellow sajak-ist!
k i dunno y but ros(farina) like kept saying my fault my fault my fault but i dono wad i did n wad did my actions lead to anyway.
o yay awak da balek!! tak penat ke ambek gamba? hahaha.
hmm firman, my madrasa fren who happen's 2 b d mudhirah's(principal's) nephew is asking me 2 join his band as lead guitarist 2 play fort minor kinda songs. firstly, he haven heard me play. 2nd, i haven heard fort minor songs. 3rd, can u c anitin wrong wif d pic? hahaha. but im quite, erm, touched la dat he askd me 2 b lead. now if i join dat means i got diz fort minor-ish band, i got noel's jazzy/garymoore-ish band, n... wait dats all.. i miss metal :S
k hav been very bz wif sajak dez past few dayz.. den like guitar stuff oso.. k went davis guitar tadi, temankan adly beli drumsticks.. yaynes.. i think he can b a gd drummer, under my constant guidance n attention >.<
haha no la not till dat extent la. but seriously, i think i can b a drummer.
or at least i wan 2 b. haha.
haha gtg.
o yes i juz rememberd. tadi on d way home, i took 243. den like got dis bpghs gurl in front of me.. den.. ah k nvm. i juz feel paiseh. hahaha. k i din do anth bad ok. but... ah nvm.
k byez.
.paiseh.
>>hmm hav i told u how cute u look in those hundred plus photos? guess not >.< <<
strummed the guitar at 3/17/2006 10:44:00 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
I neva noticed that 'Dashboard' word that appeard after u log on 2 blogspot b4 seh.
Very dashing indeed.
hmm ok i have overcame that 'denial' phase, time to face the truth. hard cold truth. Fendy, u suck. U are one hell of a sour-grape, sore looser, wannabe, big-mouthed, plain looser. You can't play guitar for nuts. I feel like throwing away my guitar. hmm but its damn bloody pretty and nice lah. n i juz adjusted the tremolo bridge 2 perfectly synchronise all 6 strings ar... don't want to waste the time i spent turning the Allen key seh (did i spell it right? nono left... hmm that depends entirely on which point of view you are looking through.. my left can be your right if you're in front of me, facing me.. but if u're not facing me, then it wud b your left.. but if you're behind me, facing me, my left would again be your left.. but if you're behind me but facing the opposite direction, then it would be your right.. same goess for my right.. but it gets complicated when you are on the left or right of me, or when you are facing like NE,NW,SE,SW when im facing N,S,E or W. hahaha k nvm)
hmm k where were we? o yes, i suck. no im not like demoralised bcoz ari kickd me out of d band. in fact, i ought to thank him for it. it came 2 me kinda like a wake up call. seriously. how can you not know chords n call yourself a guitarist?? n evn worse, call yourself Malmsteen?? fck man. k la i neva seriously meant that malmsteen thing.. but still... ah freek. n i still dare to look down on non-metal songs n saying that they are too easy... o man wake up fendy. hmm k nvm 2 more bands. o wait one more. k 2 tentative bands.. so 2 tentative chances.. you can do it!!!
thank you Ari Budiman.
n btw budak tingkat 7, 'obsessed' is abit strong a word... >.<
strummed the guitar at 3/12/2006 08:03:00 PM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
i seriously wanna get a mask.
like d guy in Street Fighter, d one wif fake metal claws dat one? d one who's hot n topless?
venga izit, his name? yeah i wan dat kinda mask.. dunno where 2 find..
damn expressionless ah, but juz slightly fierce.. anyone who noe where 2 get it PLEASE let me noe.
another thing. black tie with yellow smiley faces. or juz sum nice specks of yellow. nuthin formal. i want!
k niwaes. 2dae was, erm, skrewd? haha. hmm k mayb not relli la, coz at least got 2 spend sum time wif awakkk!!! haha.. hmm k niwaes put pedals in guitar bag, rushd out of hse, took bus den took mrt.. den ended up waiting 4 half hr 4 zwanie at cck.. haha but worth d wait >.<>.< hmm den like reachd there, mit ari.. den buy tix.. damn cudn watch fd3.. den watchd Big Mamma's Hse 2.. damn kool show ar.. den met adly.. we were 30 mins late.. hmm k niweas bla bla bla took bus walk a bit go Lee studio..
at first abit scard by d mats over there, but nvm.. den went in.. quite small, but got double pedal ah d drums! damn nice siol.. n i think i not too bad a drummer la, considering d fact dat i hardly get a chance to drum.. hmm k den ari told me 2 play sum song dat i neva heard since i was in pri skool.. den he askd me 2 play diz song dat i juz listnd properly 4 d first time like on wed.. n of coz i skrewd up la.. n i got kickd out of rige band bcoz of dat.. hmm den tadi he told me he waz kidding oni. fck la.
hmm k den went back.. k 4 dtails plz refer to zwanie.blogdrive.com :D
hmm chao!
skrewd up.
strummed the guitar at 3/11/2006 11:17:00 PM
Friday, March 10, 2006
hmm shit stupid technical error on blogspot make me re-blog.
o wells dats a gd thing rite? at least i wun do stupeed stuff on d blog anymore >.<
hmm k adly b careful bsok faliqh pukol kau kalau kau tak bagi hazwani maen drum >.<
k nvm.
hmm k wad hav i been doing past few days? apart frm wasting my life of course.
ah yes sajak. thurs got meeting/discussion/auditions/rehearsal.
i cant blif i got chosen man. im not kembanging. but juz cudn blif i got chosen.
coz saripah kate aku bawak sajak macam pantun.
but i think i did more like karut den pantun lah, o wellz.
haha i guess adiningrat got a new karut! haha kidding2.
hmm k then there's track n field. hullett got 3rd, lost 2 moor by juz 9 points ar.. haiz..
hmm but all d participants did their best, n we shud b proud of that.. haiz but d juniors, damn dissapointing. go there supposed 2 support, but like sum were straying away, sum do homework, some playing a fool. n when told to cheer they dont want. n like they only know how 2 scream like gays. faggots..
o yea as usual the day ended off with the Institution Anthem and then the Unite cheer ah.. den like after the Anthem we started stomping already, then i saw this sec one told his fren "Haiz... expected already.." like damn negatively or sumtin.. wdh ah.. felt like slapping his face.. o wellz.
o yes 2mrw gonna go moovie-ing n jamming. woohooo. hope 2 hav fun! wait of coz i will >.<
yo guyz. lets win bahas. i think a gold would b suffice to tebus all d skrewd-ism u guyz made.
.glimmer of hope 4 a dying dk team
excited
strummed the guitar at 3/10/2006 11:06:00 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
ok i din xpect ppl 2 read my blog like so fast.. fcks.
ah k nvm..
ahhhh ari aku nak maen fear of the dark!!! can make a lot of gd light effects wif it u noe... n i wan 2 sing it!!!!! aaahhhh!!!!
k nvm i shall release my frustration by singing it here...
Live version one ar..
*spoken*
A light in the black
or just the fear of the dark
*lights off*/*guitar enters*/*spotlight on one guitarist*
*one light on me once i starts to sing :P*
i am a man who walks alone
when im walking a dark road
at night or strolling through the park
and when the lights began to change
sometimes i feel a little strange
a little anxious, when its dark
fear of the dark, fear of the dark,
i have a constant fear
that something's always here
fear of the dark, fear of the dark,
i have a phobia that something's always there..
*rythm changes to damn fast drastically**all guitars n bass n drums comes in**lights on/off magically >.<*
ah k da penat nyanyi.. ah me n my fantasies... i cant sing 4 nuts.. or beans... ah wdvr.
UP THE IRONS!!
skrewd.
strummed the guitar at 3/05/2006 05:28:00 PM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
hmm k i wan 2 blog now.. but i dun think got time.. hahah.. hmm k if i stop halfway means i got no time 2 blog lah.. >.<>.<>.<
*text deleted*
i want to play iron maiden to an audience of at least a hundred people.
confused.
strummed the guitar at 3/04/2006 11:02:00 PM
