Tuesday, August 30, 2005
random ranting.. dotz.. hmm dunno y but feel like slapping myself now..
-slap-..
hmm shud i get a bc rich or ibanez btw? argh my fcking brother duzn wan 2 giv me his guitar!!
o yar its broken :P.. argh! I want effects pedals!! HE(my bro) has it! along with an amplifier and i think a digital drumpad n a lot of guitar accesories.. argh! I..MUZ..GET....EFFECTS...PEDAL!! hmm o yar remember seing a skull pick dat he has.. yea i wan dat too! n a pink pick!! argh anybody want to volunteer to buy me any of those stuff mentioned?
a. effects pedal
b. skull pick
c. pink pick
hmm.. my birthday coming soon u noe... july.. :P.. argh october havent pass already talking bout my own bdae in july.. evil ego self centered me.. o yes.. true.. veri true.. im very self centered and egoistic.. i dunno y im saying dat, but im sure its true..
hmm damn i still wan an effects pedal! n mayb im getting sum lousy guitar first lar, end of year then ill buy my ibanez or bc rich warlock.. moz probably ibanez lar.. but wdf i want an effects pedal!!
hmm dunno y suddenly thot of obs.. obs rox! :P
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PS: luv u.
strummed the guitar at 8/30/2005 11:35:00 PM
hmm. 2moro tchrs day.
got cip. so cant go back pioneer.
but even if no cip, got LOTS of homework.
so.. haiz.. n im sick btw, i dun even know whether im going ri in the first place :D.
hmm. o yes. you know my previous post? hmm well, IGNORE IT.
I was demoralised.
I was insane.
I was moody.
I was on a mood swing(er repetition?).
I was anything but in my right mind.
But, not anymore.
Wait, maybe the insanity thing is an exception.
Hahax.
But anyway,
I am not demoralised now.
I am not moody.
I am not on a mood swing.
I am not in my left mind (ok diz duzn make sense).
Actually these are all half truth.
I am still quite sad.
But I appreciate my frens' effort to moralise me back.
Yea even ari.
Hahax.
Tanx ari.
Tanx bib.
Tanx heng zhong.
Tanx chris.
Tanx wee hao.
Tanx anybody who directly/indirectly tried to pacify me.
Hmm tanx a lot bib, owe u big time.
Wad else is there to blog about?
O yes last week had dikir barat practice.
With BayanA.
But I did not go, too much homework.
N of coz I was demoralised on that day.
Speaking of dikir barat, anybody noticed?
Noticed that Adiningrat and DK Temasek rebane n juara almost exactly the same?
Hahax.
Er point to note nAdi, next time we want to pluck songs from other groups,
try to carry it in our own style.
yeah.
hmm todays entry also no malay words! (except for dikir barat and all d dikir barat group names lar).
yay I rocks.
strummed the guitar at 8/30/2005 11:03:00 PM
Saturday, August 27, 2005
im blogging, doin physics n moodswinging at the same time now.
actually i blogged twice b4 diz.
as in did an entry.
but my computer went down on me.
so er, ya u can imagine la.
niwaes ydae had rage concert.
i fcking screwed it up.
yeah it was a veri good concert.
but it wud have been much better without me.
just like syf.
d gold wif honors medal was like already in our pocket.
but there was one little tear at the bottom of the pocket.
insignificant tear.
but that tear caused the medal to drop from the pocket.
and that tear was called taufiq.
i was in denial all these while.
i kept wondering why we did not get gold with honors.
then i kept thinking it was because of nervousness.
then today i realised.
it was my fault.
i screwed up the runs for cadiz.
those runs was like the most significant part of the piece.
n i screwed it up.
juz like i did yesterday.
yes, rage concert,
a few months after the syf.
n yet i m still not able to execute the runs.
wait.
i can.
i remember being able to execute the runs a few times when we gathered juz before syf.
in the guitar room. when everyone was like packing up getting ready to go.
n i was able to execute the runs again.
on tuesday i think, in class.
n of coz at home, while i practice guitar.
but does it matter? i screwed it up during syf.
i screwed it up during rage concert.
n cadiz was not all.
goliwog's cakewalk.
the opening piece for rage ydae.
there were a few 'runs' for bass.
n i screwed it up.
when i asked mr gaspar how was the basses, he said he couldn hear us.
of course i knew that.
because we had one less bass.
yea i think u probably have figured it out.
me.
then there was colors of the wind.
i dont want to talk about it.
im so sorry.
im sorry mr gaspar.
im sorry everybody.
but dun worry.
i will not screw up next year.
coz i most probably wun b performing.
i dont want to screw up another rage.
n i most probablty wont be joining guitar in jc.
i dont want to screw up.
no thats wrong.
i dont mind screwing up alone.
i dont want to waste away all the hard work you guyz put in.
like i did this year.
wads d use of all this crap talking?
its not like as if i can reverse time.
its not like as if i can unscrew-up.
its not like as if i can play those many notes that i've skipped.
its not like as if i can erase 'guitar ensemble'
from my cca option form in sec one.
omg wad the hell m i talking about.
think positive taufiq.
argh no way.
i dont want to be in denial anymore.
face it fendy.
u suck.
strummed the guitar at 8/27/2005 03:22:00 PM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
blogging again..
offspring rox..
actually dey dun lar..
but i luv some of their songs..
come out and play(keep 'em seperated)..
pretty fly(for a white guy)..
self esteem..
defy you..
hmm wanna buy their cd..
along wif metallica n iron maiden..
but u c..
im kinda broke..
not relli lar..
got $1 in my wallet..
owe greg 3 bux..
but 2 frens owe me a buck each..
n my malay class owes me $4.45..
so i gonna hav $4.45..
4 d rest of d month..
yay.
actually no mood 2 blog..
o yar..
hmm a fren pf mine says dat my blog is veri malay-ish..
hahax..
as in i write mostly in malay..
hmm at least im not writting a single malay word 4 diz entry.. hahax..
o wellz i blog summore when im in d mood..
shud b mugging now..
and practicing guitar..
but wdh m i doing now? nvm..
toodlez.
strummed the guitar at 8/20/2005 05:47:00 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
yay at page 3 of my script.. hahx.. honestly la, how hard izit 2 translate a script frm english to malay? hahax.. o ya i not translating wad.. i juz borrow d main idea.. tanx azizul! ahahax.. dun ask me d skrip 4 wad.. i oso dunno..
hmm.. now writting testi, chatting n blogging at d same time.. argh! confusion.. hahax yay finish writting testi.. hahax.. hmm wad did i wanna blog abt? hav i wrote abt d national day perf? o ya i did.. hmmm.. o ya lets talk abt yesterday, RISE CONCERT.. yay..
hahax.. hmm nuthin much 2 write actually... o ya.. first thing.. i brought the tickets!!! yay! hahax tanx 2 d constant reminder from the PJLHPCGR Society new chairperson, Bib!! hahax.. hmm.. lemme start wif after skool, pas smbyg jumaat.. wanted 2 go guitar.. but had 2 meet my maths teacher 4 help 4 maths assignment.. it was one day overdue.. hahax.. hmm damn i skipped guitar.. feel damn guilty abt it.. n monday i mite nid 2 skip guitar again.. coz i signed up 4 physics talk.. coz i din noe we changing back d practices frm friday change 2 monday.. o wellz.. i shall skip dat physics talk.. y d hell did i skip guitar niwaes? o ya last week bcoz of dikir barat.. dunno if Adiningrat appreciate dat.. haiz.. n ydae was bcoz of math.. nid 2 sort out my priorities.. first priority, guitar or maths? argh! both i guess.. den comes academics.. den adiningrat.. but y d hell did i fcking skip guitar 4 adiningrat????? o ya.. matter of urgency.. coz d perf was on monday.. sianz..
omg im so out of point.. where was i? o ya.. did math frm 2 oclock all the way to 5 sumting.. juz one assignment.. pathet ritE? den afta dat wash up abit den change up 2 house t.. den wanted 2 put bag in guitar room.. but den scared d thing close aftr d concert, put in malay room instead.. hahax.. o ya i was wif hengzhong all d while.. he needed 2 put his guitar sumwhere safe when we go dinner.. niweas we met up wif ari first den go mat room.. hahax.. den go j8 mit up wif bib.. den go macs.. er wait sumtings wrong.. o ya me n ari met bib first.. hengzhong was wif kennedy at d pet shop.. o ya i 4got abt kennedy.. nvm not important.. hahax so bad.. er niwaes me n bib order first, ari take care of d stuff.. den hengzhong came den ari went 2 order.. den hengzhong went 2 order.. y m i like saying evri bits of dtails?? hahax.. o ya hengzhong sit nex 2 bib.. i think ari was bloody jealous.. hahax jkjk.. i shud stop making stories abt ari.. hahax.. hmm wad else.. o ya.. we played 'musical fries', hahax.. nvm long story.. den afta dat we went 711 i buy milo.. big mistake.. i went 2 shake d milo can den open.. den like my baju n sluar all milo..
niwaes afta dat we went back ri, go mat room n slack.. hahax.. a minah in a mat room.. hmm hahax.. hengzhong was like lying down.. ari was jamming wif his electric guitar.. bib was playing hengzhong's classical guitar.. n me? rebaner la! hahax.. Siti Nur Rebana.. nice name rite? hahax..
den like ari was juare-ing again.. hahax.. den i like damn bad la suan him infront of bib.. hahax.. o wellz afta like 1/2 hr crapping in d room we made our way 2 rjc.. hahax.. den watch d concert... o dear i think ari is gonna kill me eh on monday.. coz i sit nex 2 bib during d concert.. hahahx.. jkjk.. den er d concert ended an hr earlier den i tot.. hahax.. tot of hanging ard at malay rm.. but scared d hall later close.. hahax.. hmm den wad else? o ya went coffee bean.. god i hate d vanilla! hmm den ari went off first.. den me n hengzhong n bib went off take train.. i think ari was damn jealous again coz he din get 2 go walk bib home.. awww.. hahax.. crapping again.. grrr i shud stop setting him up.. n its not like i walked her home or anth, so ari u tak paya risau.. hahax..
hmm i think datz all.. my fingerz ar tired!!! hahax.. snails rox! k nvm.. gtg 4 nowz
strummed the guitar at 8/13/2005 09:07:00 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
yay get to blog! hahax.. hmm diz wk was a rush.. eh not relli.. hahax.. hmm.. o ya btw happy national day!! hahax..
hmm letz start wif last wk.. hmm.. hav i blogged abt last week? ahahax.. hmm ok.. thursday had dk.. start frm scratch.. i had 2 leave early coz me mum was sick.. friday had dk.. had 2 skip guitar.. not dat i prioritise dk over guitar, but dk was urgent..
saturday was dk.. i was 45 mins late.. i arrive at 845 la dat means.. i saw azim, farish, faris, maskil, zaid n keiren kat stage.. tot over leadi.. skali haven evn start.. farish ask me 2 start.. o ya ari oso over there.. hahax.. so i ask dem go squash qourt, i took kompang join dem.. juz did pitching.. a few runs of d juare.. n a few runs of d juare wif ragam.. den tried teaching dem how to tepok(clap) properly.. but sumhow cudn.. hahax.. den show dem wads tepok 10.. giv dem ruff idea.. hahax.. n ari was juare-ing.. hahax..
den went out 2 stadium steps do tepok 10 n teach dem wau bulan.. hmm hav i posted abt diz leadi? hahahx.. i think i did.. o wellz.. anwaar was ard but not ard.. hahax.. he came down once or twice 4 a few runs.. arif oso.. but he was sick.. but he was ard.. hahax.. hmm adly tak datang.. neither did syafiq nor khairul.. khai tot it was at 12.. but actually wad time? 8.. hahax..
den go busking.. hahax.. it was pathet.. er not relli.. but yar it was quite pathet.. hmm.. ari n hyqel n sec ones were at mandarin.. sec 2s, sec 3s n sec 4s were in front of SVC.. wdh.. hahax.. bib came down at d svc area.. pass her d guitar shirts.. den d rest of d day was juz plain boring boring boring.. hahax.. den went home.. hahax..
-fast forward-
ydae ntional day celebrations.. hahax.. nAdi.. Adiningrat.. hahax.. dk barat.. damn skrewd.. but was ok lar considering d circumstances we were under.. sally d bitch was informed like last month.. first she wans dk, but change 2 kompang.. 4 dat whole month she kept sayin she get us outside instructor she get us outside instructor she get us outside instructor.. but did she? no!.. n we din evn had any kompangs.. last2 ask adly n maskil 2 teach d rest kompang, which was impossible in such a short time.. den thursday change 2 dk... hahax.. o ya.. we din hav proper rebane, no paluan.. anwaar did gong, he playd anihow.. say he cannot hear awokz.. cannot hear indra wif d rebane.. d rebane was like freaking longgar.. indra tanak jemor.. o wellz.. juare had diff beat, rebane had diff beat, awok individually had diff beats.. but sum awoks cud kip 2 d rebane beat la.. hahax.. hmm.. if we had a proper rebane, paluan n more time, we wud hav done much more better..
niwaes after d perf semue lepak kat d malay room.. den i use lighter heat d rebane.. n it sounded brand new.. bloody indra he say jemor no use.. o wellz... den i teach halim how 2 paly rebane.. damn good lar he.. fast learner.. tot him beat bodo, kelantan, tepok 3, n he did his own tepok 10.. damn good.. yay found a rebane player 4 d sec 2 batch.. hmm 4 my batch? dunno.. hahax.. o wellz.. gtg watch ndp.. hahax.. my fren inside.. o wellz.. chowz 4 now..!
strummed the guitar at 8/09/2005 05:09:00 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
yo long time no blog sia.. hahax.. hmm wad hav i been diz past few days? DIKIR!! e bah! ahahx.. no not wif bayanA.. wif nAdi.. hahax.. Adiningrat.. pandai2 je tuka nAdi.. hahax.. but sounds cooler la.. hahax..
niweas diz dk is 4 national day.. diz coming monday.. n when did we start practice? 2 days ago (thursday).. n we r like panggel budak2 sec 1s ar.. kiwak dat goes to show dat we got sum stuff man.. hahax.. but oni do juare lar.. n mayb wau bulan.. but contemplating abt dat.. coz 2dae baru i teach dem wau bulan.. hahax.. n its like oni 11 orang datang.. n like oni 3 budak baru yg dapat blaja.. coz d rest r either experiencd or hav 2 balek cpt.. niwaes, d rest banyak tak datang.. d guy who berangan2 nak jadi juare at first oso tak datang.. saket.. den d rest of my batch ade kate tak tau pukol brape.. ade yg got hal dunno wad hal.. i tak kesah la.. hmm.. den d rest oso like got ccas n all dat.. so attendance was pathet.. n i came like 45 mins late n d thing haven start.. imagine d shock la.. d horror..
niwaes farish, being unaccustomed 2 diz bad culture of 'janji Mlayu' of d mcc, bugged me 2 start first.. hahax.. so evrione like gather kat squash court.. den pitching den do a few rounds of dian yulaiha.. hmm wad else.. o ya.. afta dat do wif ragam.. den do wif juare verse.. damn fani la ari jadi juare.. imitate azizul denga pitch kat hp.. hahax.. i was rebane-ing.. or kompanging.. hahax.. hmm ari juare ss sak.. din follow my beat.. hmm neither did d awok.. hahaz.. so itz like rebane(or actually kompang :P) satu beat, awok satu beat, juare satu beat yang sungguh jauh sekali.. hahax.. hmm but d idea of awok tak ikot either d rebane or at least d juare is scarryyy.. relli..
niwaes afta dat tepok wif beat bodoh.. but halim demo first.. den dey did.. quite ok abit la.. den go out 2 stadium steps 2 do summore tepoks(d squash court echo nak mampus).. so there i did tepok spuloh wif dem.. hahax.. hmm.. or did we do in d hall first? sumtin liddat la.. o ya. hall first.. den afta dat indra came n do rebane, den i join awok again.. den he left again den we went outside at stadium steps do summore tepok 10.. den do d song a few runs.. den afta dat i tot dem wau bulan.. hahax.. o ya.. anwaar came a while, join a round or two.. den afta dat cabot cakap nak balek ke ape.. hmm niweas, afta all dat dk went lunch wif ari n farish at j8.. den come back.. take guitar den go busking.. hmm saw anwaar (who claimed he had 2 go off like hours ago!) wif faris azim n nazi.. hhax.. hmm den go busking.. den pass d guitar shirts to bib.. hahax.. one is S, d other is M.. omg.. hahax.. definitely buat gantong kat dinding sua.. hahax.. hmm damn sian..
now im stuck here.. monday d first perf 4 adiningrat after a veri long break.. or holiday..hahax.. nAdi hidup kembali.. hahax.. god willing.. hope adly agrees 2 do wau bulan.. d guyz luv it.. hahax.. hmm.. yea man.. hopefully a miracle happens on monday, coz datz wad nAdi nids.. seriously.. no im not saying dat we suck.. its d tchr in charge.. she was informed like a month b4 diz.. den she first nak dk, den change 2 kompang nak panggel instructor la ape la.. den diz prev wed or sumtin suro adly ngan maskil aja.. n wan silat summore.. babi.. den finali tok sense 2 her n do dk.. but no proper rebane.. no proper paluan.. wdf.. n oni 2 sessions or 3 sessions of pract.. she better not complain.. o ya.. speaking of complain.. she sent 2 guyz 2 sum leadership workshop thingey.. surprisingly not anwaar nor adly.. wdf! she pick anyhow one sia.. die hardly pernah datang turon nengok training sessions.. 4 dk nor tarian.. den pandai2 pileh ppl wif so called LEADERSHIP talents.. i guarantee u, wif her around, there will never be a PERSATUAN.. no never.. wif leadership roles filled up by her.. never.. no im not saying im against doz 2 guyz being top dogs in d mcc.. but there are many better persons.. who hav committed in d pbm SINCE SEC ONE.. who hav like struggled 2 thru wif d 'pbm' 4 d past 3 years.. who listen 2 instruction.. who dun play around during training.. but no.. she anyhow pick.. no i will not say animore.. 2 d ppl who ar related 2 diz entry, mintak maaf zahir batin(no i swear upon god d maaf duzn include cikgu).. aku tak kesah sape yg jadi exco ke ape.. itz juz a club.. aku cume tak puas hati ngan cikgu n her lack of commitment 2 d 'persatuan' which she is suppose 2 take charge of..
o ya.. she duzn evn noe we hav 2 rebanes.. she duzn recognise which one is gong, which is canang, which is kompang which is anak which is ibu rebane.. wadya expect?
strummed the guitar at 8/06/2005 11:01:00 PM
