being a guitarman.
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the.gayguy]]*

the dude.

.fendy
.taufiq (white)
.appreciates(almost) all sorts of music
.tries hard to play guitar:P
.raffles
.070790

.wishlist*
.a decent, non-Ibanez 24-fretted guitar with floyd rose (preferably a Schecter)
.pink braces
.EQ pedal
.a lot of cash(need, not want)
.my bro's ephiphone hardcase
.a hardcase for my Squier
.a mini humbucker for my Squier(bridge)
.a mini humbucker for my Squier(middle)
.a mini humbucker for my Squier(neck)
.a new hp
.new amp
.Seymour Duncan humbuckers for my epiphone
.strike out at least one of d wishes above
.to-do-list*
.fix my Academy LP neck & frets
.fix my Epiphone '96 LP neck & frets
.organise a gig
.jam with my cuzzins/their frens
.get a life
.get decent grades for promos
.be nice
.strike out at least one of d stuff above
Credits
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.goodbye*
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    • .sing with me*



    Sunday, April 11, 2004
    aarrrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    went online few hrs leadi.. not a single bloody chat... argh...... stupid lah..... going mad...... at home nobody to talk to... wad.. want me to talk alone? like stupid people? xcuse me lah.. im not stupid... argh... wanted to go online in the afternoon.. but if online afternoon, can oni go online for abt 1 hr.. then nite cannot.. then say if at nite, said 7 till 10.. but i started at 8!!!!! thats not fair lah.. still have to end on tyme... going mad.. want to noe y i went online late? cos SUMONE go download stuff into this pc when he DOESNT EVEN NOE what the programs mean.. then computer slow.. then have to help him check HIS mail.. then his mail load like take so long.. the whole computer slow... stupid lah.... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh.. tehn i want to chat using sms oso cannot!!! argh!!!! going mad lah.. said later bill very expensive.. I said already.. take the plan wif FREE SMS.. Nooo.. muz take the one wif free incoming calls... argh.. my incoming calls like only worth 8 bucks, outgoing like 15 bucks, sms 24 bucks.. thats condered little.. wif the other plan can save like 30 bucks!!! but okay lah.. u say expensive.. I PAY LAH!!! then u sae its not abt payment.. then u say bill too high.. its abt discipline.. argh.. lame lah... i use, i pay.. discipline rite? then u said thats not.. u said discipline means i give u stuff, u use it the way i tell u to.. thats lame!!! argh!


    strummed the guitar at 4/11/2004 09:19:00 PM

    Saturday, April 10, 2004
    ehrm2.. clears throat.. wah.. today got dk training.. better than i expected.. no anwaar.. n adly didnt pick on me.. much.. kept on picking ari.. n indra was like going: "wah ari! yellow very the funky!!".. cos ari was wearing his bright yellow glasses.. and adly was like saying "wah wah ari" while falling backwards when ari told ppl to 'dek'.. pity him.. but he's a gd dk guy lah.. can improve.. has very good control of voice.. very firm.. my voice can be loud.. but can b shaky oso.. haha.. n juz now ilman was saying i was amongst the few who was loud.. haha.. kembang.. i kembang till my size like anwaar.. but muz hav heard wrongly lah ilman.. haiz.. nvm.. niwae.. abt dk.. i came on tyme.. then we pecah suare.. then we.. wait.. was it juara or tepuk first? oh yar.. we did juara a few tymes thru.. then do a LOT of claps.. buat bodo.. haha.. geddit? bodo? nvm.. wah man.. my tepok all screwed.. sumtimes off beat.. but the moz important is that my tepok sound low quality.. haha.. but got one clap i do VERI wrong, n the sides of my palm salah urat.. how skrewed can i b.. haha.. but got better lah.. my claps i mean.. my hand still can feel the pain.. then we moved to the clocktower, coz hall very noisy.. prefect investiture rehearsel.. oh yar.. b4 dat we did the ragam oso.. when at clock tower.. we did the juara's juara verse nye ragam.. very wierd.. like so out of ordinary.. then we worked on the whole juara.. ilman was far away to check out our volume.. he said me, sadikin, syafiq and i think a few more guys were veri loud.. haha.. i think he mistook ari's voice for mine.. wait.. that's not possible.. but he muz b mistaken.. haha.. niwae.. the horrible think abt dk was adly.. grr.. he kept on saying 'adek..adek.. kakak veri proud of u.." in veri draggy soft voice.. grr.. but my fault lah.. dat tyme sms kakak didnt wait till anwaar buzz off.. then saw my msg.. stupid rite? then another horibble thingey was TEPOK 10!!! N im not toking abt my clapping.. 4 those who dunno.. tepok 10 is a damn long clap at the start n end of a dk performance.. we get to shout out, or laung, wad ever we like.. we usually shout out sum gurl's name to try to make one of the dk guys get pissed or irritated.. like dat time, we tried making kama pissed.. we shout out ehrm ehrm's name.. but dis tyme they pic on ME!!! argh.. they were like laung-ing sum sum gurl's name dat i noe of.. argh.. they like dun evn noe her.. they live in like where? tampines, yishun, eunos etc.. n she's living in jurong west.. n we skool at bishan.. she at bukit batok.. eh wait.. shukri lives at bukit batok.. but still.. they dun evn noe her.. n still they want to kacau me.. bloody.. haha.. niwae.. nuthing much happened lah.. so mayb later when i get inspiration i tok sumore.. bubyez..


    strummed the guitar at 4/10/2004 09:58:00 PM

    Friday, April 09, 2004
    omg.. I cant believe it.. there's no dk 2dae.. dat means my life hav been extended by one day.. woa.. remembering anwaar's word on the phone "The next dk training u'll die".. wah anwaar.. lyke i scared of u like dat.. haha.. dat duzn sound like me.. niwae.. today i did one thing that i nvr imagine i cud hav done.. i watched gareth gates.. argh... but hes okay.. im the ego one.. niwae.. having webcam chat.. but not showing myself.. now cam spoilt.. argh! tok later


    strummed the guitar at 4/09/2004 08:59:00 PM

    Thursday, April 08, 2004
    Hey y'all.. im back.. promise leadi rite? Niwae, today, i will tell u a long story of my life this week.. Mayb not long lah.. I f i lazy i cut short, see first... Firstly, Monday... Trip to school was monotonously normal.. Then, when i reach skool the chaos starts... Got dis guy named Geng Yu, took my guitar and ran away... No, not away, but round and round the JB.. Might sound simple.. but the minute he gets past the class another person takes over and run with my guitar.. So it is like a relay race, but im all alone.. Niwae, later dat dae i nid 2 do more running, so i didnt try to run my best speed... But then.. Got THIS PARTICULAR GUY got me damn pissed off.. I can mention his name, but I dont want.. scared later another quarell crop up.. Well, this guy, he ran with my guitar, WITHOUT the cover.. I got near him, but at a corner he didnt slow down, and HE SWUNG MY GUITAR INTO THE LOCKER LOCKS.. That moment i feel like crying.. and you know wad? My guitar got chipped.. U want to know wad do I mean by chip? It is like PLUNGING the edge of a guitar with a FLAT SCREWDRIVER and press it down like opening a MILO TIN wif a SPOON! it was one deep chip.. Until now i feel like punching him.. but i dont want to start fights, cos wadever fight i strat will spark off another fight and another and another... But if I could only turn back time, I would return to the point when I finally got back my guitar and then I'll walk up to him and smack his face wif the very guitar that he smacked into sum metal locks.. I vow never to forgive him ever again... And then on tuesday got dk practice.. horrible.. Plain horrible.. I'm just not cut for this stage crap stuff.. I think im more of an instrument type.. Mayb lah.. Cos evryone in my whole family, as in including cousins, uncles etc, all know how to play at least two instruments.. im toking abt the guys.. the most common one is the drum, bass, guitar and kompang.. k lah, drum n kompang is they not so pro lah.. but they still noe how to play them tho.. but there muz b a black sheep in a family.. Hopefully im not the one.. niwae.. dk training sucks to core.. dk sux.. k lah, sorry.. da last time i saed that statement sumone offended.. dk in my skool, for me, sux.. other than not being cut out to be a stage person, what makes dk, n all pbmir activities, sux, is bcos i get bullied.. an example.. ppl TAKE my fone.. ppl send hoax sms WITH my fone.. then they RUN with my fone.. then they THROW around my fone.. then they DROP my fone.. only abt 2 weeks and my fone is ALL scratched.. and all thanks to that particular guy.. Lets see, how much do i owe him.. For HUMILIATING me, for BULLYING me, for PUTTING ME DOWN, for PUSHING ME AROUND, for SMACKING MY FACE AND PUSHING ME ONTO TABLES when I try to get sum stuff that are mine, for KICKING me when the lockers are too high for him to spot his lock, for CHIPPING my guitar, for DROPPING my fone around, thats a lot... hmm... nvm.. I'll get back at him.. If possible.. But I don't want to even TRY to get back at him.. cos if i do, i'll b causing sum bad thing which i shall not go into his detail abt.. niwae, wednesday, which is ydae, my day also bad.. that idiot prefect called anwaar.. grr.. dunno wad 2 sae.. he went to spread ard things abt me, he went against what he swore, then he can claim he didnt swear to me abt anything, then he say he swear but didnt say swear upon what.. he's such a bloody, idiotic ... my fingers are itching to type out one word that describes him the best, but i'm not as low down as him so as to b so vulgar.. and i dont intend to bring myself down to his level, which is way below dirt.. niwae, he and that guy and most of the pbmir ppl all same.. picking on others.. when they nid help, they go to the ppl they always bring down.. when they dont nid help, they treat those who had helped them like sum kind of circus dirt.. speaking of dirt.. anwaar owes me 5 bucks as a whole, and a few more bucks accumulated from the very first day i step into this school.. N anwaar, i wont halalkan any single cent of it.. n it goes to the rest of the ppl that are within his ring.. niwae.. have i talked abt wednesday? nvm. wednesday for p.e. we do running then play soccer.. then my cca pt also play soccer.. thursday, today, sumthing memorable happened.. Sum guys in my class play soccer in the back of my class.. One guy tried to shoot, but did it wrongly and shot up.. hit a flourescent lamp.. and one of the lights support gave way, so the light eas dangling for a few hours there.. then later teacher called out those who were responsible.. I didnt play any part at all, but i kept on talking abt taking the punishment with them, but i went back against my own word cos i tot nobody who were not involved was going to stand.. class unity thingey.. but there was this guy.. i really salute him.. weehao's his name.. he was obviously not playing, cos of injured arm, but he went to the front and took the blame with the other nine ppl.. really respect him.. haiz.. im such a coward.. cant event take a punishment with my 'friends' together.. mayb cos of the fact that some of the 'friends' that had to stand up had been always picking on me? No.. thats just an excuse.. argh.. egoistic coward.. niwae.. dunno wad 2 type.. oh yar.. 2moro encore telecast of mtv asia awards.. muz watch.. got gareth gates.. not bcos im his fan, but cos im an egoistic person who do not know what i m compared to him.. i noe that im nothing compared to him, but still nid to verify.. see? ego rite? nvm.. u guys will get confused.. oni those involved with this me-gareth issue will understand.. summary: i found that there are more idiots at my skool other than 'that' guy.. gdbe yellow brick rd


    strummed the guitar at 4/08/2004 11:09:00 PM

    Got new skin.. again.. dats A-G-A-I-N.. haha.. lame.. 2dae skip dk.. got ngaji.. tapi kalau takde ngaji pon aku tak selere nak gi dk.. nanti hp kene curik.. abeh budak budak a-hole 2 gi hantar sms sms.. patot bill tinggi.. tapi bukan pasal 2 je.. karut mengarut.. k lah.. dun wan 2 tok abt dat animore.. lets back it up a few hrs.. 2dae morning start off okay.. take mrt.. blah blah.. go skool.. wait.. talk later.. nid 2 chow.. bye


    strummed the guitar at 4/08/2004 06:56:00 PM

    Sunday, April 04, 2004
    got new skin.. a little graphic error tho.. heckz.. niwae.. feeling sick.. headache.. backpain.. shoulder pain.. but still its worth it.. at least she online.. can tok 2 her... nvm... niwae.. lemme tell u a story.. Once upon a tyme(ydae), i went to this faraway place(2-3 stops frm skool) called yishun.. i went up down up down 4 towers(hdb flats).. collect precious peices of gold(old newspaper).. veri the heavy.. collectted a looot... class split into 4 grps.. my grp was the fastest for 2 out of 4 stages.. then third one we got second.. last one cannot remember.. hehe.. but my grp help others quite a lot.. no, SUM of my grp didnot.. ppl like MUHAMMAD, MUHAMMAD & KIA BOON!! ARGH! me n the others at least help move the newspapers frm block 2 block. The 2 juz sit down.. then muhammad complain tired... grr.. niwae.. i came back home wif a headache, backache, shoulder ache, tired legs.. wait, my legs werent tired.. n my shoulder ache frm few days ago.. but the whole thing was quite okaylah.. xcept 4 the fact that i havent done my HMWORK.. no, i wasnt bothered abt hmwork.. i was bothered abt not getting 2 go online.. niwae, the homework was an art assignment, n i 4got 2 buy brush.. so I used my mum's dishwashing SPONGE n my FINGERS.. it turned out unclear.. but it was abt polution.. so i put a msg: 'POLLUtion MAKES THINGS UGLY!'.. make it look like a deliberate ugliness.. ended at abt 130 am.. niwae.. 2dae i helped out at mendaki's 'mobile play'.. got tv camera crews.. took a shot of me.. but DIDN'T APPEAR ON TV!!! They muz b healous of me or sumthing.. hehe.. niwae.. a few mins ago, n still currently, I toking 2 sumone.. sharks lah.. i was like playing unchained melody on my guitar.. then she talked abt another guy.. wa lao.. suddenly i lost my touch on my guitar.. dat oni happens when i get JEALOUS.. then she quarrell wif her cuz.. then i tersalah cakap.. hurted her sumore.. argh.. frm jealousy 2 guilty.. maybe shud change my nick frm paradigm.jealousy to paradigm.guilt.. haiz.. i realli damn bad... sorry..


    strummed the guitar at 4/04/2004 07:46:00 PM